existent fears

12May11

I can’t seem to push away the many thoughts in me. Insecurities. Sometimes I just need to learn to draw the line. I need to realise that I too get tired. I need to realise that I’ve got to be myself and not try to live in the shell of another. A few thought proking questions raised up and I tried refuting. But somehow you seem to always win. I feel inferior and inadequate in your presence but yet at the same time I am grateful that you raise these thought proking questions. These help me to think and perhaps understand myself more. Yet, our relationship leave me feeling as if I am hanging in the air. I guess I expected too much from it initially. There is not much I can do now but just stop expecting and pray that God will bless our friendship. Let it be.

Perhaps I approached it wrongly but all I did was be myself. Doubts. Fears. Father, if it is Your will, may the friendship blossom. Thank You.