not anymore
what more do you want from me? It is draining. Nothing works. You have taken every little energy I had. What more do you want? How about you take my life. Do all that you want to me. I can’t be bothered anymore. I can’t seem to trust in you anymore. nothing is going to work. It is useless. turn my life around and perhaps we could talk.
forget school forget exams. I wish I could.
Mummy, Daddy I wish I could just forget everything now. I have disappointed both of you a lot. Life really is so screwed up. I really wish sometimes exams were not everything. But let’s face up to reality. It is and perhaps that will never change. And perhaps the fact that I am just not cut out for what I am doing now will not change either. I have thought of ending it all. But perhaps what is holding me on now is the love and care your are giving me. but yet again. sometimes it makes me so afraid of disappointing both of you. The higher the hopes your have of me, the more I disappoint. I feel like giving up and forgetting everything. No one understands. I feel so useless so stupid and lousy. I really don’t know what to do. I keep failing. Perhaps that is the only thing I am good at. I’ve been trying but perhaps not enough. I am drained. I don’t want to go on anymore. But Mummy and Daddy, I promise to continue trying and searching for the tiniest hope that is left though I know it is quite impossible. but I will try. Sorry for the disappointment.
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